idiocy.

id-i-o-cy: utterly senseless or foolish behavior; a stupid or foolish act, etc.

This is a song I wrote yesterday. I spent a solid amount of time with Jesus repenting and confessing the numerous sexual sins I have committed over my lifetime. This is what came out at the end. My home church, GENESIS, did a series on Proverbs this summer and I have been studying it since. It is sobering to me how alike the "fool" I have been. But no longer! I seek wisdom. I want to act out the knowledge I have, not simply speak it. I want to obey the Word for I love the Word and I seek to make the Word known.

FYI: This is a probably the most honest song I have ever written about my life and struggles. I wish I could record it and sing it for you, it's pretty haunting, but maybe I can figure that technology out another time and put it on here later! :)

"She calls out to me
From down the street,
'Stolen water is sweet.'
'Come take your fill
of love until
the morning light greets.'

And like an ox
to slaughter
I walk toward her door.
What I don't know
Is what I sow
will cost my life or more.

Ooooo.... (verse in a haunting tone)

My heart aches
for what she takes
is all my body and soul
Lord, forgive me
I need to be
Restored and made whole

So I call out to You
for Wisdom and Truth.
show me how to fear You!
to love and hate what You do!
So I call out to You
for Wisdom and Truth
show me how to fear You!
to love and hate what You do!

Ooooooo....

Beloved,
Let me live
To grow in knowledge of You."